Stupid Boy!

*Disclaimer - this blog is just a bunch of rambling thoughts today and it's kind of long. :-) Sorry to bore you.

Is Thanksgiving really tomorrow? I can't believe that it is already here. Where has this year gone? But I'm excited about his holiday season. It's one of my favorite times of the year. Last night our church along with three other FWB churches in Nashville got together for a combined Thanksgiving service. It was our year to host it and it went really well. It felt like just a regular Sunday evening service and then of course we had a fellowship afterwards. You can't have a FWB function without eating. It was so good. I had a good time spending time with some of my friends from church that I haven't been able to just sit and talk with in awhile.

We still haven't heard anything yet from mom's test results. They said it could be today but it will probably be Friday or Monday so we are expecting Monday. My mom's not thrilled about going through Thanksgiving not knowing but I think she will be too busy to really think about it. Since my brother and his family are coming up mom will have her hands full with my niece and nephew. I might be cooking the turkey this year. I'm not sure. Since mom's not sore at all from the biopsy she may go ahead and do it but I might actually take a crack at it...with my mother's supervision of course. We usually split up the cooking between her, my sister (in law) and myself. We usually make two dishes a piece. Jenny makes the best stuffing and the best sweet potato casserole. I know it's the best because I'll eat it. I hate sweet potatoes and her casserole is the only one that I'll eat. I don't know what she does to that stuffing but man it's so good! I'm making my famous layered salad. It's really good if I say so myself. I have a cousin who will take the entire dish and eat it as a meal so we usually have to make two but he's not coming so I'm only making one. I also make the green bean casserole. I'm not really sure why I make that every year but I do. I think it's because I've been making that since grade school because it's the easiest dish to make...but it is oh so good. I usually make both those the night before. The casserole tastes better if you make it up and refrigerate it over night...let those ingredients gel together. The salad has to be refrigerated for 8 hours so I always make that the night before. That's fine because mom and Jenny always make theirs on the day we eat so I stay out of their way and let them do all the work. I'm not sure what my mom is making. But I know it will be good. My mom's a really good cook. Last year my parents and I went to Gatlinburg for Thanksgiving so we didn't have our usual meal which was weird but it was nice to not have to do anything. I think we are going back next year unless I miraculously get married before then. Chad and Jenny will be with her family so it will just be the three of us.

Why can the male gender be so stupid sometimes? They say that they have a hard time figuring women out...I can't figure them out sometimes. Maybe it's just me. But they can be just as moody and fickle as women. They start stuff and do things and then...BAM!...they just totally do something in the opposite direction! So frustrating. That's all I really have to say about it but just to say that they are so weird and I just can't figure them out sometimes and it just hurts my heart at times. I was talking to my sister (in law) yesterday about it and I asked her why is it so hard for me? It seems so easy for everyone else to find someone but not me. I know that I'm not the prettiest, smartest, thinnest, or most talented person out there but I do feel like I have something to offer someone if they would just stop and get to know me. What really bothers me is when I see couples fuss and fight and call each other names constantly. I would never do that. I would never treat my husband the way I see some wives treat their husbands. At least I would hope I wouldn't be that way. But you see couples like and wonder how God allows that when I would think I wouldn't be that way. Its very frustrating. OH...and on Facebook I had put as my status once that I wish God and I were on the same timetable. And some idiot man said..."I guess you better change your timetable...I doubt His is going to." Well, duh!! I know that! I was just venting my frustration at the moment about something and I didn't need someone pointing that out to me. I'm very well aware of how God works on those things thank you very much! Whew..that felt good. I've been holding that one in. I'm off my soapbox now.

Dancing with the Stars ended last night and I wasn't surprised with who won. I knew that Brooke and Derek would win from the first week. She was the best dancer from start to finish. I was surprised that Lance and Lacey came in third. They were very good from the beginning and he got better every week. I wasn't too impressed with the cast this year so I'm actually glad it's over. I just wish that we didn't have to wait until next fall for it to come back on. Since they are going on tour soon they can't come back in January or February which stinks. Now I have nothing to watch on Monday nights. Oh well. I'm sure I'll find something to do with my time.

I'm so sorry for those of you who stayed to the end to read this blog. It was incredibly boring even for me as I typed it. I hope that everyone has a fantastic Thanksgiving and eat lots of turkey. My favorite is going back later on that night and eating leftovers. I was watching FRIENDS last night and they were doing an episode about Ross getting upset that someone at work ate his leftover Thanksgiving sandwich. He said that it has a moist maker in it which he described it as in the middle of the turkey sandwich there is a slice of bread soaked in gravy. That sounded so yummy. Maybe I should try that.

Happy Thanksgiving!!

God is so Good!

Wouldn't you know that since I was so impatient last Monday about using the Karen Carpenter song Rainy Days and Mondays that today it's raining!! So in honor of that I decided to play the song on my blog. So enjoy. I love Karen Carpenter. She had a range on her. I wish so badly that I had a smooth voice like hers. I'm an alto singer like she was but my voice is not anywhere near as smooth as hers nor do I have the range like her. I try though. In our Christmas cantata this year I have a solo and it's at the top of my range and of course during practice last night it cracked in one spot. It's really too high for me but there is no one else to really sing it. It's a beautiful song with so much meaning and truth to it and I hate that I could mess it up by allowing my voice to get shaky and crack. I so wish that I had more musicality in me but again that all went to my brother. :-( But anyway, I'm just going to keep pushing and stretching my voice that when the day of the cantata comes I will be able to get through it without any problems.

Today was my mom's biopsy. I'm so glad it's over and I know that my mom is glad it's over. We have to now wait for the results. I'm confident that it's nothing. It was a calcification that they found which is usually benign but it could be cancer so there is still that little bit of fear when you just don't know the unknown. But I'm trusting the Lord will take care of my mom and all us not just in the circumstance but everyday in every situation. God is so good!

The whole process of getting a biopsy was a little nerve-wrecking and if I was feeling the nerves it hit my mom a hundred times worse. First the hospital called on Friday to say that her appointment would be on Monday at 8am and that a nurse would be calling to give her instructions and tell her where to go. Well a nurse never called her so on Saturday my mom called her doctor's answering service and they said that a doctor would call her with instructions. Well some random doctor from another hospital called her and asked her what she needed and he said he didn't know where they went to have biopsies but he thought it was at this certain place (which he turned out to be right). So of course, my mother is getting even more nervous and anxious because she's afraid that they didn't even have her down for the appointment. So this morning at 6:30am my dad called her doctor's office again and they finally paged her real doctor and he called dad and told them where to go. So after winding our way through the hospital we found the right office. They take us back to this teeny tiny waiting room and they finally call mom who they did have scheduled for today. They told me and dad that it could be almost one and half hours before she was done but it was closer to two hours. Then while we are sitting there you hear a constant noise of door clanking shut. That is the most annoying sound ever. They clank when they open and they clank when they shut. They were clanking the whole time we were sitting there that it was making me nervous and I wasn't ever nervous about the whole situation up to that point. If there was suggestion box in the waiting room I would surely have said something about the incessant noise!But the good news is they were able to remove the entire cluster. Mom's feeling pretty good now. I'm sure that after the numbness wears off she will be sore but she's feels good. I think her nerves have just calmed down. They told us that we might know Wednesday but it will probably be Friday or at the latest Monday. I hope so. I know my mom is ready for this whole thing to be put behind her so she can concentrate on the holidays.

Tonight I have a thing to go to. I'm excited about spending some time with my friends and just relaxing and having fun. This is going to be a busy week but it will be short work week which I'm so thankful for. We are spending Thanksgiving at my parent's house this year. My brother and his family are coming up for it so it will be nice to have a few days with them where me or my sister in law doesn't have to get up and go to work.

Please keep praying for my mom as we wait for the tests results to come in. Hope you all are having a fabulous Monday.

Beat It!

Yesterday I asked you to pray for an unspoken request. It was for my mom. Something showed up on my mother's mammogram and now she has to have a biopsy. They said that there are black specks and they have formed a cluster but she doesn't feel any lumps or is in any pain. So I am very confident and hopeful that this is nothing but of course your mind does drift off to the "what ifs". You can't help it sometimes.

Six years ago my grandmother passed away from breast cancer. There were so many circumstances surrounding that situation. She was in a Podunk town with a Podunk doctor who was treating her for other things and telling her it was in heard so by the time she got to a real doctor the cancer was too far gone that there was nothing they could do for her. But of course since that was the cause of her death you tend to be a little worried when you are put in that situation so I don't blame my mother at all for being a little concerned over this. But we know that God is in control and that we are placing this situation in His hands. Mom and I didn't go to church last night for a couple of reasons. Dad told the church last night so they could pray. I'm praying that when she goes in for the biopsy that the cluster is gone. I believe my church will be praying for that as well. My church has serious clout with the Lord. We've had several people in our get cancer and every one of them has beat it. Everyone of them is cancer free now. Two women had breast cancer and one man had leukemia. Every time our church prays for healing the Lord heals. So I'm confident that will turn out to be nothing at all and even if it does turn out to be something I know that Lord is with us and He will take care of my mom and all of us. So continue to pray for my mom and that she will have peace with this.

Last night, I stayed home with mom from church so I baked snickerdoodle cookies and we watched the movie August Rush that was playing on TV. It was a pretty good movie. The ending was good and predictable but I felt like it could have gone on for a little while longer. It just sorted ended but it was still good. If you love music you will like this movie. It makes me wish I had never stopped taking piano lessons. I wish I was more musically talented than what I am. I don't play any instruments. I do sing occasionally which I enjoy when my throat isn't cracking and my knees aren't knocking together. You would think after years of singing in front of people that I wouldn't get nervous but I do...every time.

My brother is coming in to town today. He and my dad got tickets to the Illinois vs. Vanderbilt basketball game tonight so it will be nice to see him for a few minutes. I wish he would be my niece and nephew with him but I don't think he is able to. I'll get to see them next week during Thanksgiving though.

I've got a busy day today at work so I guess I better get started.

Prayer

My heart is burdened today. All I ask today is that you pray for this very special unspoken request. I know it's frustrating when people ask you to pray for unspoken requests but sometimes those are the most needed.

So the only thing for my post today is that you please take this matter on my heart to the Lord.

I miss Mayberry...sitting on the porch drinking ice-cold cherry coke..

Yesterday I didn't make it to work. I got up and got ready but I had another one of my dizzy spells so I ended up staying home. These put me out for an entire day. It comes with a migraine and nausea. It's not fun and when they come on, I'm completely useless. So I've accepted that I just have to stay home and lay in bed or on the couch when they come on. They don't come on very often but when they do it's bad.

But on the bright side it was nice to stay at home the entire day and not do a thing. I don't remember the last time that happened. So I pretty much spent the day watching TV and doing a few loads of laundry. I didn't spend my time watching Maury or the courtroom judging shows. Those are so pointless and a waste of good TV time. I did watch Little House of the Prairie though. :) I had not seen that show in forever. Stupid thing still makes me cry but you can't help it when they are on there bawling like babies. I have a rule anyway that when you cry in my presence I cry along with you. Apparently that applies to people crying on TV as well.

The other night I had DVR'd some GAC shows that they were doing on Brad Paisley. Just to remind everyone that I'm a HUGE Brad Paisley fan. Anyway, they were showing a behind the scenes of the making of his video Waiting on a Woman. Have you seen it? It's so sweet. First of all Brad Paisley seems to be one of the most humble and nicest guy around. His songs are so good and funny and his videos are so great. They are filled with humor. Secondly, he had Andy Griffith in the video. I've heard horror stories of Andy Griffith but after seeing him behind the scenes I don't know if they are true. He was so sweet, cute and funny and he seemed truly appreciative that he was asked to be in the video. You can watch the video here if you haven't seen it. After watching the special it made me want to watch The Andy Griffith Show so I was able to catch a few episodes yesterday. After all these years it is still a good show. It's still so funny. I love it. It's a good show to base how you want to raise your children on. But it made me feel so nostalgic. Does that happen to you? I miss the more simple slow paced life that we used to live. Everyone is always in a hurry and needing to be here and there for this reason or another. People also seemed much happier and less selfish back then they are these days. That's not to say that people aren't happy these days but life just seemed easier and more peaceful back in the days of Mayberry. So yesterday was just that for me. It was very peaceful even though I was dizzy and had a bad headache. I laid around watching TV and reading a book. It couldn't have gotten any better than that.

As far as I know my week will be fairly slow and uneventful which is fine with me. I've been so busy the past few months and I know in the next month things will get pretty crazy so I'm going to enjoy the boringness in my life right now. Can you believe that Thanksgiving is next week!! That is mind blowing. Where did this year go? It is so true what they say about the older you get the faster it goes. It seems like we just started 2008 and now we are almost in 2009. My niece will be 3 my nephew will be 1 my brother will be 33 I will be 32 and my sister (in law) will turn 30!! I remember when I was you how people in their 30's seemed so old but that sure isn't the case now! I feel like I'm 12 most times! :) Oh well, I'm still going to embrace it and enjoy it.

Hope every one's day is fantastic!

Hold Me Close Tony Danza!!

So I'm listening to pandora.com and I'm listening to the country station I created and they are playing Tiny Dancer by Tim McGraw. Was it Elton John that originally sang it? I can't remember but what's funny is that I used to think that the phrase was "Hold me close, Tony Danza." I used to think why do they want Tony Danza to hold him close? If it's Elton John I understand. :) But I used to think that was so crazy. I mean Tony Danza was the greatest on Who's The Boss? and he was a looker. Who didn't have a crush on him?! But I just realized in the past year or two that they are saying tiny dancer and not Tony Danza. My bad! :)

Do you ever do that? Do you ever sing a song and you make up words because you didn't know the real words? There's a scene in 27 Dresses where they did that. It was so funny. Ahh James Marsden. He's so dreamy!

I am so glad it's Friday! I'm sure everyone is saying that today. It's been a long slow day for me. There is no one up front with me today so it's a little boring. Well, it's boring in between all the phone calls. I've been answering all the toll free calls today and they have been ringing off the hook! We just had a mailing go out this week to everyone on our mailing list and there have been so many people requesting to be taken off the list. That doesn't matter to me. What matters is how rude half these people are being! It's ridiculous. I didn't put them on the list and I don't know that your Uncle Bubba passed away back in 1989 if you don't call and tell us! This why I'm not in customer service full time. I get too aggravated with rude people. I don't answer this line much. The girl that normally answers it is on vacation today so I've been doing it and I will gladly hand it back over when she gets back! It's wearing me out.

Tonight I'm going to Panera Bread for dinner and then I'm going to go watch Eagle Eye at the theatre. I love Panera Bread. They have the best soup in a bread bowl! I was so happy to see one go up fairly close to my house. That was one thing I missed when I moved to Nashville so many years ago. They didn't have Panera here so when they put one in last year I was stoked!! Eagle Eye is another movie that I recommend. I saw a few weeks ago but the people I'm going out with tonight haven't seen it so I'm going again. That is fine with me. It was so good!! It PG-13 so it has a few words but not many at all and it's really clean. It's not bloody or too gory from what I can remember. It's a really good action movie.

Tomorrow we have a Nursery Seminar at the church for everyone who works in the Nursery. Carol Reid from FWBBC is the speaker so it should be pretty good. We are trying really hard to get all our classes at church top notch and I hear she has really good ideas on how to make the Nursery more of a teaching center than just a babysitting service. It should be interesting and there's a lunch afterwards. You know there has to be food for any church function. I think it's part of the covenant.

Have a great weekend!

Money, Money, Money.....MONEY!!

Today is a pretty dreary day here in Nashville but I love it. The sun has peeked out a few times today but not much but this is a perfect fall day. I actually find it quite romantic and peaceful.

Tuesday night I went to a fish fry at the church and it turned out so well. We made almost $500 and we had a huge turnout. I was so excited about that. I believe that we are half way to our goal. Like I said before the Ladies Prayer Group at church is raising money for some video equipment for the church and this fish fry was to help with that and it was a huge success! We didn't charge a certain amount for a plate but asked for an offering that we put at the front of the buffet table. It worked tremendously! I highly recommend asking for an offering instead of charging a certain amount. People are so much more giving than you realize...or maybe it's just my church. They have such a giving heart. They give for everything. Any time that there is a need a church they don't hesitate in giving money where needed. They just give.

Last night after church I went home and watched the CMA Awards that I DVR'd. I didn't realized that there was so much singing but it seemed like every country star got up and sang. I love Taylor Swift's number and Kellie Pickler's as well. I really loved Brad Paisley and Keith Urbans's duet that started out the show. Those two fantastic guitarists! I could have listened to that all night. I was excited to see Brad Paisley co-host the show. I always thought he was hilarious! If you ever see his videos or listen to his music there is quite a bit of humor in them. I thought it was so cute when he won his category that he went down into the crowd and hugged and kissed his wife's belly. She's pregnant and I thought that was so sweet. You could hear the whole crowd go, "Awwwwwe!" It was a pretty decent award show. It wasn't ever boring or draggy like I thought the Emmy's were this year!

I had lunch today with my mom at Logan's Roadhouse. That is very rare when it's just the two of us going out to eat. We had a good time. We mainly talked about Christmas and Thanksgiving plans and the CMA Awards. I actually couldn't believe that she watched it. She loves Brad Paisley (who doesn't?). She has become a pretty big fan lately. I should take her to the CMA Fest one night next year....what do you say, Tammy, want to try and take her with us next year? Of course we will have to try and get on the lower level or else she can't go. My mom is afraid of heights. I remember for Christmas or her birthday or Mother's Day I got her, dad and myself tickets to go see "Annie" at TPAC. I got tickets on the tier level and it was high and she didn't really enjoy it at all because we were sitting so high she was getting sick. I was okay with the seats but then again, I don't have the fear of heights like she does. I made up for it when I got us tickets to go see "12 Angry Men" as another gift for some occasion that I can't remember. I think this one was Mother's Day. John Boy from the Waltons was starring in it along with some guy from Knots Landing so I knew she wanted to go see it. I was able to get tickets on the Orchestra Level and we were able to get pretty close so I know she enjoyed it. I enjoyed it also. It was a really good play. I recommend people go see it if they get the chance.

So tonight I don't have much to do except for a bit of laundry. I'm always bad about waiting until I have nothing left to wear and so I have like 4 loads to do in one night and since I run everything through the dryer at least 2 or 3 times before it dries, I'm up really late on these nights. But Survivor and The Office is on tonight so at least I'll be happy. I do have some friends coming over tonight to watch The Office with me. They love it as much as I do and it's more fun watching with people so you don't feel like an idiot laughing to yourself. But you can't help it. Steve Carell is so funny but I actually don't like his character that much because he's so annoying. My favorite has to be Dwight. He's so weird that he's hilarious. So I'm looking forward to tonight.

Have a great night!